Okay. I would just like to start this off with saying.. SIN SUCKS! A lot! Shoot! It doesn't matter whether you are a Christian or not. Sin sucks the life from us and we might not even realize it. It took me awhile to realize it.
When I became a Christian I was like yeah I got it all together. I got this. I tried so hard to control my sin. I tried to stuff back in a corner so nobody would know or find out what my sin was. And that is exactly what my problem was. It was "I" got this. "I" tried so hard to "control" my sin. I never gave it up to God for Him to take it away from me.
Like I said, I tried to hid my sin to keep it out of my sight so I wouldn't feel pain and regret. Then I started this awful, viscious cycle. When things were going great in my life, I wouldn't give into my sin. I rarely felt tempted at all to fall back into my past lifestyle. But when something bad happened in my life, it was my sin that I ran to and not God. I fell back into what tempted me the most. I fell back into my sin because I needed to feel good for at least a little while. And while my sin kept tricking me that it was satisfying me, I kept moving farther and farther away from God.
When things started looking up, my relationship with God kind of went back to normal. I would have my quiet times but not really hear what God was trying to say to me. I would read scripture just to say that I read it. I wouldn't be tempted back into my sin. Until something bad happened again. And it did. It always does... I was tempted into my sin so bad that I could not take it anymore. I surrendered everything to God because I couldn't carry all the crap (sin) anymore. I have learned that I need to be AWARE of my sin and exactly what tempts me. I need to be aware so that I won't fall back into my sin. That I won't run to my sin! That I will run to God! And I hope the same for you.
Look, sin makes you think you are okay, when you are not. I know that everyone goes through what I just talked about. It is our condition that is occurs in our life. No matter how big or how small this may seem. Your sin could be getting drunk, gossiping about others, having sex when you aren't married, judging others, and so much more... God views all sin as equal. There is nothing that we can do that will change that. What we have to do is look to God in times of good and bad!
Trust me, I am still learning this. A good friend of mine recently got in a really bad car accident. Usually what would happen is that I would fall back into my sin and just feed the cycle. But something amazing happened. I ran to God instead of my sin. I relied on Him with everything I had. He blessed me with amazing friends to show His comfort and love. I prayed constantly to Him past the point of exhaustion. It was amazing to experience that reliance on God no matter what the outcome with my friend was going to be. But God is so faithful and He saved him.
Like I said, SIN SUCKS! Please don't be a slave to sin like I was... Act like the child of God that you truly are and look to Him for comfort, forgiveness, love, wisdom, and His plans for you. For He is a perfect God and we can find true joy in Him! WHOOP WHOOP! :D
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